Friday, September 11, 2009

Of Maybe and Couldbe....Of Desires and Deserving...

They say the glass is half full...or maybe its half empty...But what when u say one when everyone says the other...Its then that you don’t know what to believe..and what not to... Let me tell you what I believe...There are secrets in your life that you wanna hide...reasonings and perceptions...logics and perspectives....desires and deservings...
We all know what we are...but we make sure we don’t make ourselves realise it...We wanna be someone else...We desire to be in their place...or maybe a place equivalent to theirs...So, what do we do...We change...for the better??? I don’t know...haven’t lived long enough to comment on that...but all I know is that we have our identity...our individuality...our existence...
We owe what we are to a lot of people in our lives...a lot more then you can think of right now...starting from your parents to the best of friends you hold so close to your heart today...But does that justify your obligation to them?? Or does it justify your existence?? Try this..what makes you choose when you have to?? Is it you..your beliefs and your desires?? Or is it what you believe you deserve and what you don’t?? Or is it what they believe??
I don’t know what is right and what is wrong ...but I do know this...there is always a flip side...when we talk of what is fair and what is unfair...it always involves someone other than us...someone we presume we know...someone we believe knows us...But then...do you know yourself?? Or do you “think” you do?? Life comes a full circle they say...I say we decide that...If we want everything we have owned and loved to decide our existence...our beliefs...our perceptions..our desires...maybe we don’t deserve what we desire...For all those who believe in Fate...in things happening because they “are meant to be”....try taking the first step...try standing up for what you believe you want...and you will deserve it there and then...To say that maybe it wasn’t meant to be, is equivalent to saying that maybe it never would be too....Who are you to decide?? Who are others to decide for you?? “Maybe” you know what is right and what is wrong...But then it “could be” that you are wrong in thinking so... Who decides that??
There is something we all seem to believe in...and we call it love...we all seem to know what it means...and we all have our own definition of it...and again...if you are the one who feels it...why should it be others who define it?? Why do we constantly seek what we call happiness...Why do always seek peace...Why do we always seek justification...and why do we always seek compliance?? Is it because we need a re-iteration that we are right in doing what we desire?? Or do we want to know whether we deserve it....Lets define our reality...and lets justify our dreams...lets make ourselves happy with what we have...or lets work towards making our dreams a reality...The choice is ours...or do you want to leave it to someone else to make it for you??
Lets talk of dreams...are they what we desire?? Or are they what we presume we deserve...maybe no one knows...maybe no one ever will...But we do know it comes from something we don’t manipulate...something we don’t consciously control...Is that what defines our true self...Is that what defines our reality?? Or is that which defines our desires??? No one knows,...But it sure makes us believe...in a world we define...in a life we desire...in a place we belong...and a desire that we deserve...Is it wrong to desire?? Is it wrong to believe?? Is it wrong to want?? Maybe it should be about what others think...But it Could be if only we believe...in not just me...but us...and that is something that others can’t do for you...because how much ever they might know you...it won’t be enough...not enough to decide your life...not enough to decide your ambitions...not enough to decide your existence...
Happiness...what makes you happy?? Is it people around you?? Or is it people who love you?? Or is people you love?? It is hard to find happiness...many who have pursued happiness have tried and failed...but some have found it too.. Who are they?? Did they make everyone happy??? Did they live for everyone?? I say No...I say it is and will always be about the choices we make....the decisions we take...it is always about strength..it is always about conviction...and belief....To be on the other side you have gotta work towards deserving what you desire...and for that you need to have faith...in what you believe...It is and will always be your strength to take on the world for what you love to achieve what could be...You doubt your dreams and it will always end up being a “maybe”...maybe it could have been...maybe it was right...maybe that is what I wanted...maybe that was the life to me....maybe....
So, live to love...and love to desire...and desire to deserve...because maybe..it “could be”...never give up on what you desire...because its only then that you will deserve...Listen to others...But believe in yourself...Let others Love you...but love someone...let others think for you...but decide for yourself...Let others give up on you...But never give up on what you love....Because life doesn’t give you a second chance...It is just this one time we have to make it right...just one choice...just one opportunity...It is for you to take the shot...to believe....So to deserve...you have got to desire...and it “could be” if you let go of the “may be”......

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